Per my request, Logan took pictures of our babies while they were being weighed and measured. We took a handful of photos too while holding them and loving them right there in the hospital room. I didn't want to forget a moment. I needed something to look back on, to remember, when their sweet little bodies were no longer with us.
The hospital took hand prints and foot prints of Luke and Lexie. Anything they could give me to remember our babies was something I would keep forever.
I was also told later that same morning that a volunteer from Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep would be coming to take photos of our babies, if we wanted. If we wanted?! Of course we wanted. Vivian showed up that afternoon and took some INCREDIBLE pictures of our babies and our family. I have yet to see all of the pictures, but the ones I have seen are more than I could have hoped for.
Logan and I are pretty private people in situations like this. I am unsure what photos I will share with you, if any, here on my infertility blog and even my regular blog. Logan and I are the only ones with digital access to any pictures of our babies and we will most likely keep it that way.
The hospital gave us Luke and Lexies receiving blankets, wristbands, bracelets, diapers, blankets, teddy bears, rings, headbands, hats and anything else we asked for. Each of these mementos are precious keepsakes we took home with us. They were added to their brothers and sisters keepsakes for us to look back on from time to time.
Logan and I have now lost five babies; two sets of premature twins that I delivered, and a single little 7 week old embryo. I don't know how much the human spirit can take but I can tell you that I am running on empty.
I am grateful for all the keepsakes we have been given, but I would gladly return them all to just get my babies back.
