Even though we got an AMAZING offer from my co-worker and friend Emily, Logan and I put everything on hold after losing Lexie and Luke. I really don't know what we were waiting for. I kept telling myself we were waiting for the right time. After all, moving forward with a gestational carrier was a process we knew nothing about. It was a bit daunting even though we had a perfect baby mama picked out.
I think I was trying to figure out what God wanted for us. What was his plan for our family? Nothing had worked out for us for years now even after the amount of work, sacrifice and effort we were putting in.
I found some clarity in the weeks to come. I knew that we needed to get things rolling because Emily wasn't going to be around forever.
The next week Logan and I had a consultation with Dr. Foulk.
The day of the consultation we found ourselves sitting in Dr. Foulk's office like we had many times before. When he finally came in he looked right at us, said hello, and said "What happened?" "How far did you get this time?" Logan and I took a few minutes to tell our very sad story. I'll never forget something he said to us in the first few minutes after telling him what happened. He said "This world sucks." He continued with "You know those babies are in a better place waiting for you, right?" I responded with "Yeah, that's what we're thinking." Dr. Foulk interrupted and said "No, don't think!, you know they are." We smiled. I appreciated so much his comforting approach that many other doctors these days shun.
After telling Dr. Foulk that I had spent five months on bed rest (one of those months being in the hospital) and all the pure hell we went through during this third pregnancy, I told him that I couldn't do it again. And, more importantly I knew my body would fail me again. There was no reason to risk it and we made that perfectly clear. Dr. Foulk knew it too.
From that point on we discussed using a gestational carrier. We would implant our biological embryo into a uterus that had proved to be healthy and a body that could carry a pregnancy. Dr. Foulk asked us if we had someone in mind or if we needed to talk to an agency to choose a carrier. I felt TOTAL RELIEF when Logan and I were able to tell him that I had a friend at work that had offered "her services." Right then he asked for her name, her husbands name and a bit of her history.
He also provided Logan and I with a clear picture of what would legally need to happen before we would ever be able to implant our embryo into another uterus.
We had a lot to do. It felt so official when Dr. Foulk typed Emily and Mike's name into his computer. Official, but completely exciting! We were on our way!
As we drove back toward Salt Lake, I called Emily to tell her the good news! She was at work and I remember telling her, quote, "I'm comin' for your uterus!"
We are so blessed.
