Well, one week after my first trip to the ER, we found ourselves right back there, one week later. Because the bleeding was so significant this time, the on call doctor from my OBGYN office admitted me overnight.
Logan stayed with me that night. We got zero sleep. I laid awake in pain every two minutes from some major cramping. It terrified me. The cramping started in the ER and continued to worsen once we were taken to the Women's Pavilion. While sitting in the ER, we were addiment that I be taken up to labor and delivery recovery quickly, just in case our nightmare came true.
I was pretty sure when things got worse that we may have lost our beautiful babies that night. I finally told myself that if that was the Lords plan, then his will would be done.
We were discharged the next afternoon after the bleeding was mostly stabilized. I was scared to go home.
Today, I had my first appointment with Maternal Fetal Medicine at St. Marks. They were very thorough. I had a detailed abdominal ultrasound done that showed two healthy babies--organs and all. My vaginal ultrasound however revealed some complications. They found a blot clot in between my inner and outer cervix that could not be released because of the cerclage I have in place. My outer cervix is still dilated more than it should be, so once again, we were told that having the cerclage done was the right choice. However, we need that clot to dissolve and be released in order for my cervix to heal and hopefully tighten. Additionally, my cervical length measures a 2, which is also shorter than it should be, indicating that the length between my cervix and vagina is short and may indicate pre term labor. Ugh.
We talked about more. So much more. I asked the Perinatologist the bottom line...prognosis. He indicated to me that we have a 60, possibly 70 percent chance that the pregnancy will continue and we would end up with two healthy babies. However, at 14 plus 5 weeks, it's still too early to be able to do much.
I left my appointment feeling a bit discouraged but happy to have gotten answers, and honest answers at that.
For the next few days I will pray harder and work on having even more faith in my Heavenly Father.
After all, I am 14.5 weeks today, and it was one year ago at the same gestational age we lost our first set of twin babies. I'm grateful for every day I have beyond today.
